{"componentChunkName":"component---src-templates-story-js","path":"/story/how-bullying-has-affected-g/","result":{"pageContext":{"data":{"id":"-d622ad8c-e733-53b7-8b2d-ae6bf4066ff3","authorFirstName":"Gabriel","storyTitle":"How Bullying Has Affected Me","photo":{"asset":{"url":"https://cdn.sanity.io/images/nr9digz2/production/cc62e1b15da7e03c9b094e474a508fae71e68623-1500x1000.jpg"}},"audio":{"asset":{"url":"https://cdn.sanity.io/files/nr9digz2/production/e0a06d87d01e6b08e087653c01b5ba690eab3abc.mp3"}},"secondLanguageAudio":null,"school":{"name":"Greendale Middle School","city":null,"location":"Wisconsin"},"tags":[],"_rawText":[{"_key":"f547d9209f1d","_type":"block","children":[{"_key":"daadabd094ea0","_type":"span","marks":[],"text":"I was bullied in most of the schools I went to in elementary school. 3rd, 4th, and 5th grade to be specific. Although I don’t know why I can tell you that it has changed who I am as a person and I wouldn’t be myself if it didn’t happen."}],"markDefs":[],"style":"normal"},{"_key":"147a97480170","_type":"block","children":[{"_key":"abae2a0d9d3e0","_type":"span","marks":[],"text":"In elementary school, I was probably the weirdest kid there. I would always talk about how I could make potions and how they could give my friends superpowers, among other things. I would also go on and on about how cool my birthday party was going to be and how many people I invited to them. Well, you read the title and see how well that turned out. Turns out that people don’t like weird kids and the people I thought were my friends ended up turning on me in third grade. What's unique about my situation is it was always the people who I thought liked me who hated me the most. After that, I switched schools and I stopped being so outward with people. I turned to video games to find comfort in fiction, surrounding myself with impossible realities hoping that somehow I could be transported there and forget about the responsibilities that came with fourth grade. I made fewer friends and became more and more involved in the gaming scene. Although I wasn’t very good at video games, I still played them. Fifth grade rolled around, and I switched schools once again. At the start of the year, I tried having a large group of friends, but that backfired quickly. They ended up dropping me because they thought I was, you guessed it, weird. After that, I stopped desiring large groups of friends and stuck with a guy friend for the rest of the year.\nOverall I think that I’ve become a worthless shell of my former self, with virtually no friends besides the ones I’ve amassed online. I refuse to share my identity with people or tell them about my interests. I don’t do anything but do my school work and play video games. Now it might sound like I am withholding blame and placing it upon myself, but I am not. I do not wish to blame myself or others for actions they did not know hurt me or how the action may have affected me. They were children, immature and ignorant. But I can’t say that I don’t hate myself a little. Even though the situations I dealt with "},{"_key":"c8b1f64d58a81","_type":"span","marks":["em"],"text":"were"},{"_key":"c8b1f64d58a82","_type":"span","marks":[],"text":" difficult for someone my age. I wish I could have done something better or at least confided in the people I knew who would have supported me. But a wish is just a wish; I can do nothing about it. The past cannot change by wishful thinking, so it is best to learn from mistakes I have made in the past.What I can say is that I’m thankful for the things and the people I’ve had and have now. Although I wasn’t happy then, I’m happy now, and that’s all that matters."}],"markDefs":[],"style":"normal"}]}}},"staticQueryHashes":["3309388390","890781507"]}